Heyy ya'lll

Like omg i have no posted in so long im so sorry XD my life is sooooo busy

We have so much to catch up on

1)ive lost 5lbs :/ not because ive tried bt because im so busy i dnt really eat

2)theres no boy anymore :'( yes we tried again and yes he let me down again...he started been really mean and patronising and started talking to me like i was a twat...the worst thing was "i think yu need to start going gym again..."
C*&T!! aghh hes stressd me out but now that hes not around i can get bk on track :)

3)im back in contact with my best friend!! :)
Basically we stopped talking about 3years ago bcs of some sillyness but she ws my beat friend from wen we ws 11...she got back in contact with me and im so happy like i dnt need a bf right now shes the funniest person alive and i love her to bits BUT shes a size 6 (uk) like seriously im the fat friend :( i hate it so i need to do something about this lool its hard bcs shes tryna put on weight and im tryna lose...like really?! Lool but its kool we're gna meet half way 8st and a half :)

3) uni is foooookiiinnn hard !! Lool ive got so much work to do i gt 2 reports due in 2nd dec aghhh its too much stress like reli this is my week
Monday-friday: uni 9-5
2evenings: work 6-10pm
Sundays: work 9am-9:30pm
And then i try to go gym as much as possible and see my friends and family....i swear to god there isnt one day i cn sleep past 7am

But yu knw what im hoping to loose more weight
Im having "that time of the month" at the moment so i feel like shit

4) this is prob the worst for me
I miss sex!!! Looool
I havnt had any in like a month i swear i miss havin a bf :( life wudnt b as bad if i was still gtin some action bt theres a drought going on looooool

Anyway girlies i hope yur all doing much better than me
Love you all x

Back On Track!! :)

Right so got my new laptop im not gonna be on my phone anymore so i can do actual posts.
i will post daily-ish lol

 i have a plan to get skinny again im upset that i cant seem to stick to my restricting im like doing good all day.. get home and eat like a starved child.

my motivation has more than gone its vanished, left, deserted to say the least because of uni my priorities are all over the place :(

im going gym monday-wednesday-friday but the boy goes with me (following..literally) and after about an hour and a half he wants to leave..i swear i could live there...

anyway because my restricting to max 1000calories my body keeps flactuating (if thats the word..im tired)

so i have a new plan i literally just saw this on some website so im copying (cat) and going to give it a go

Day1:1000cal                                      Day2:400cal                  Day3: 300cal
Day4:400cal                                        Day5: 500cal                 Day6: 450cal
Day7: 650cal                                       Day8: 650cal                 Day9:400cal
Day10: 300ca                                      Day11:400cal                Day12: 500cal
Day13: 450cal                                     Day14: 650cal               Day15:700cal
Day16: 400cal                                     Day17: 300cal               Day18:400cal
Day19: 450cal                                     Day20: 500cal               Day21: 650cal
Day22: 700cal                                     Day23: 400cal               Day24: 300cal
Day25: 450cal                                     Day26: 500cal               Day27:450cal
Day28: 650cal                                     Day29: 700cal               Day30: 400cal
Day31:FAST!!



doesnt look too bad right?
i like that i have a guide because with my 1000max limit im like yhh its alright if i eat this...and this...and this...oh forget it..binge.

bad times

anyway i was at work today ll ill and dying of tonsalities(the throat thing) im literally like all looking dodgy and out of any day or anytime to come in...my new sexy manager comes in :S why?!! why me??!! whyyyyyyy :'( he saw me all ill and dying and ahh he must thing im a hobo definetly lool

i saw him on facebook but i was like allow that ive met him like once..how eager would i look seriously i need to stop my facebook stalking Ha!

anyway girlies i hope your all good :)
and healthy and skinny and Beautiful :)

love to you all

xxx

Im Sorry :/

What a horrible human being!!
im so sorry for been ghost but uni started and its been non stop :'(

im goin uni 9-4 everyday working 6-10 two evenings and 9-9 on sundays and gym whenevr possible...
Seriously im dead!!

been living off ProPlus and i was losing
I lost like 5lbs on that jenny craig bulls#%& but im so busy i was eating when i got in at night and too tired to refuse a takeaway...like everyday

Seriously what a tramp!
aghh i hate my weak self

But on a good note coming back on here and catching up with the lovely bloggers has made me relise that i should be no.1 in my priorities list....
Theres no point of living this hectic life fat!
Lool i chat s%&* i know but im high and waffleing

Anywayzz
News!!
*i got some sexxxxyyyy new manager...like OMG i want to die when i see him like seriously the eyecandy is unbearable!! i want him in my bed NOW (slut) !!
*the boy asked me to move in with him?!! sorry what?!
yes he asked if we could move in together...ermm

*Weight Issues*
sexxy manager off till the 20th
CW-a disguisting 11st....err
'Realistic' GW-10st 5lbs
MY GW-9st 10lbs

A pound a day isnt impossible isit??
Neway my lovelies i shall be back very soon
Hope your all well And beautiful

Remeber-Saying No To That 'Snack' Is The Start To Something Beautiful!!

*mwah*

Anotherrrr Diet?!

Hello My Lovelies :)

So been extremely busy because of uni starting !
Ahhhhh im excited
But scared lol

Anywayss il be fine finally im not gonna be at home eating like a *Fatty*

So i got some news ;)
And questions .....

Have any of you heard of the 'jenny craig' diet??
Basically its like diet chef they send all the things you need to eat pre packed pre cooked and ready to eat..
Its like super expensive literally i dont even want to say...
But you get a consultation, weight plan, your own 'councellor' and pretty much pointless things
But
Anyway jus wondering if any of you have tried it or know anyone that has becausr i hadnt eaten for like a week maybe and lost a WHOLE nothing........seriously i was upset :'(

so now that ive moved out my mum was like "hey you dont know how to cook why dont you try this" so i did
Plus the food packs are quite big like seriously its much more than what i eat now

So anyway lets see how i do and im sure a post will come up like "omg i love/hate this"

Lol

Wish me luck
And i hope all you girlies are staying strong and beautiful

X
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*Ell*
i took your advice its so easy to just say yeah i ate blah blah blah just gotta tell them what they wanna hear lol thanks hunnie x

Can I Ever Get Her Back..

Hey Guys..
So something bad happened my friends would always joke about my not eating...but theyre really starting to annoy me now

They keep going on about it and telling me 'if you want to loose weight why dont you.....'
like seriously! i hate when people bring all that healthy bs to me like i havnt tried it already!!

then they say 'starving doesnt work'

it does it 100% works i know for a fact...

I know i sound like a bitch and theyre 'only trying to help' but i cant handle this..

I havnt lost in a month..i havnt gained in a month
My skins f@#&*#, my belly constantly hurts..im sleepy im adj'd and literally just want to stay in bed forever....

I need mia back to tell me im doing the right thing

Love all you skinnies xxxxx

Having The Future Talks..

Heyyy :)

So i was talking to my "friend" about my plans of how im gonna go about uni and what im going to do when i have to move to norwich and as we're on the same course he decided to share too

and ohno..

he said this lame thing about how he thinks itd be a good idea if we move in together to save money ¬ ¬ lol

then we started talking about whats going to happen after we finish in 2years

he wants to come back to london eventhough we have the option of staying up there to work with KLM
i want to stay incase i cant get a job back in london and then im stuck in that endless jobless graduate circle

we sat in silence
we both knew what was going to happen
but we didnt want to admit it

its weird now that hes not my official boyfriend i felt like i had no right to tell him hes right or wrong
it hurt to know that he was so adamant and didnt jus say its ok il stay with you

im such a selfish cow

all i said was "well you know we're not long term anyway"
BITCH
all he said was "i'll love you forever no matter what you know"
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The Weight Issues
Haven't really weighed myself since me and the boy started talking again i dont feel like ive gained but i dont think ive lost

Best to maintain rather than gain though aye?

Weighed myself this morning 67.4kg
Not Good..
But I Will Get To 60kg By 20thSept :)


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Lilah Lee-i hate how boys can eat literally everything and not have to worry about gaining weight :( my friend eats ALL the time and hes skinny as ever im so jel lol i annoy him saying hes skinny but i love the way he is...muscley and defined bt skinny not like the hulk lol x

Erm..

Ok guys honestly speaking..

What do you think of these pictures?

Do you think boys look good skinny?
what type of boys do you go for?

would you want a boyfriend that had an ed?

random i know but ive just been thinking...

Ive missed you all :(
Sorry ive been a ghost
Been working like a slave and sleepin when im not

Thank you so much for your comments..
You lot are THE bestest
I appreciate your comments so much like honestly each one makes me smile :)

x