Heyy ya'lll

Like omg i have no posted in so long im so sorry XD my life is sooooo busy

We have so much to catch up on

1)ive lost 5lbs :/ not because ive tried bt because im so busy i dnt really eat

2)theres no boy anymore :'( yes we tried again and yes he let me down again...he started been really mean and patronising and started talking to me like i was a twat...the worst thing was "i think yu need to start going gym again..."
C*&T!! aghh hes stressd me out but now that hes not around i can get bk on track :)

3)im back in contact with my best friend!! :)
Basically we stopped talking about 3years ago bcs of some sillyness but she ws my beat friend from wen we ws 11...she got back in contact with me and im so happy like i dnt need a bf right now shes the funniest person alive and i love her to bits BUT shes a size 6 (uk) like seriously im the fat friend :( i hate it so i need to do something about this lool its hard bcs shes tryna put on weight and im tryna lose...like really?! Lool but its kool we're gna meet half way 8st and a half :)

3) uni is foooookiiinnn hard !! Lool ive got so much work to do i gt 2 reports due in 2nd dec aghhh its too much stress like reli this is my week
Monday-friday: uni 9-5
2evenings: work 6-10pm
Sundays: work 9am-9:30pm
And then i try to go gym as much as possible and see my friends and family....i swear to god there isnt one day i cn sleep past 7am

But yu knw what im hoping to loose more weight
Im having "that time of the month" at the moment so i feel like shit

4) this is prob the worst for me
I miss sex!!! Looool
I havnt had any in like a month i swear i miss havin a bf :( life wudnt b as bad if i was still gtin some action bt theres a drought going on looooool

Anyway girlies i hope yur all doing much better than me
Love you all x

Back On Track!! :)

Right so got my new laptop im not gonna be on my phone anymore so i can do actual posts.
i will post daily-ish lol

 i have a plan to get skinny again im upset that i cant seem to stick to my restricting im like doing good all day.. get home and eat like a starved child.

my motivation has more than gone its vanished, left, deserted to say the least because of uni my priorities are all over the place :(

im going gym monday-wednesday-friday but the boy goes with me (following..literally) and after about an hour and a half he wants to leave..i swear i could live there...

anyway because my restricting to max 1000calories my body keeps flactuating (if thats the word..im tired)

so i have a new plan i literally just saw this on some website so im copying (cat) and going to give it a go

Day1:1000cal                                      Day2:400cal                  Day3: 300cal
Day4:400cal                                        Day5: 500cal                 Day6: 450cal
Day7: 650cal                                       Day8: 650cal                 Day9:400cal
Day10: 300ca                                      Day11:400cal                Day12: 500cal
Day13: 450cal                                     Day14: 650cal               Day15:700cal
Day16: 400cal                                     Day17: 300cal               Day18:400cal
Day19: 450cal                                     Day20: 500cal               Day21: 650cal
Day22: 700cal                                     Day23: 400cal               Day24: 300cal
Day25: 450cal                                     Day26: 500cal               Day27:450cal
Day28: 650cal                                     Day29: 700cal               Day30: 400cal
Day31:FAST!!



doesnt look too bad right?
i like that i have a guide because with my 1000max limit im like yhh its alright if i eat this...and this...and this...oh forget it..binge.

bad times

anyway i was at work today ll ill and dying of tonsalities(the throat thing) im literally like all looking dodgy and out of any day or anytime to come in...my new sexy manager comes in :S why?!! why me??!! whyyyyyyy :'( he saw me all ill and dying and ahh he must thing im a hobo definetly lool

i saw him on facebook but i was like allow that ive met him like once..how eager would i look seriously i need to stop my facebook stalking Ha!

anyway girlies i hope your all good :)
and healthy and skinny and Beautiful :)

love to you all

xxx

Im Sorry :/

What a horrible human being!!
im so sorry for been ghost but uni started and its been non stop :'(

im goin uni 9-4 everyday working 6-10 two evenings and 9-9 on sundays and gym whenevr possible...
Seriously im dead!!

been living off ProPlus and i was losing
I lost like 5lbs on that jenny craig bulls#%& but im so busy i was eating when i got in at night and too tired to refuse a takeaway...like everyday

Seriously what a tramp!
aghh i hate my weak self

But on a good note coming back on here and catching up with the lovely bloggers has made me relise that i should be no.1 in my priorities list....
Theres no point of living this hectic life fat!
Lool i chat s%&* i know but im high and waffleing

Anywayzz
News!!
*i got some sexxxxyyyy new manager...like OMG i want to die when i see him like seriously the eyecandy is unbearable!! i want him in my bed NOW (slut) !!
*the boy asked me to move in with him?!! sorry what?!
yes he asked if we could move in together...ermm

*Weight Issues*
sexxy manager off till the 20th
CW-a disguisting 11st....err
'Realistic' GW-10st 5lbs
MY GW-9st 10lbs

A pound a day isnt impossible isit??
Neway my lovelies i shall be back very soon
Hope your all well And beautiful

Remeber-Saying No To That 'Snack' Is The Start To Something Beautiful!!

*mwah*

Anotherrrr Diet?!

Hello My Lovelies :)

So been extremely busy because of uni starting !
Ahhhhh im excited
But scared lol

Anywayss il be fine finally im not gonna be at home eating like a *Fatty*

So i got some news ;)
And questions .....

Have any of you heard of the 'jenny craig' diet??
Basically its like diet chef they send all the things you need to eat pre packed pre cooked and ready to eat..
Its like super expensive literally i dont even want to say...
But you get a consultation, weight plan, your own 'councellor' and pretty much pointless things
But
Anyway jus wondering if any of you have tried it or know anyone that has becausr i hadnt eaten for like a week maybe and lost a WHOLE nothing........seriously i was upset :'(

so now that ive moved out my mum was like "hey you dont know how to cook why dont you try this" so i did
Plus the food packs are quite big like seriously its much more than what i eat now

So anyway lets see how i do and im sure a post will come up like "omg i love/hate this"

Lol

Wish me luck
And i hope all you girlies are staying strong and beautiful

X
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*Ell*
i took your advice its so easy to just say yeah i ate blah blah blah just gotta tell them what they wanna hear lol thanks hunnie x

Can I Ever Get Her Back..

Hey Guys..
So something bad happened my friends would always joke about my not eating...but theyre really starting to annoy me now

They keep going on about it and telling me 'if you want to loose weight why dont you.....'
like seriously! i hate when people bring all that healthy bs to me like i havnt tried it already!!

then they say 'starving doesnt work'

it does it 100% works i know for a fact...

I know i sound like a bitch and theyre 'only trying to help' but i cant handle this..

I havnt lost in a month..i havnt gained in a month
My skins f@#&*#, my belly constantly hurts..im sleepy im adj'd and literally just want to stay in bed forever....

I need mia back to tell me im doing the right thing

Love all you skinnies xxxxx

Having The Future Talks..

Heyyy :)

So i was talking to my "friend" about my plans of how im gonna go about uni and what im going to do when i have to move to norwich and as we're on the same course he decided to share too

and ohno..

he said this lame thing about how he thinks itd be a good idea if we move in together to save money ¬ ¬ lol

then we started talking about whats going to happen after we finish in 2years

he wants to come back to london eventhough we have the option of staying up there to work with KLM
i want to stay incase i cant get a job back in london and then im stuck in that endless jobless graduate circle

we sat in silence
we both knew what was going to happen
but we didnt want to admit it

its weird now that hes not my official boyfriend i felt like i had no right to tell him hes right or wrong
it hurt to know that he was so adamant and didnt jus say its ok il stay with you

im such a selfish cow

all i said was "well you know we're not long term anyway"
BITCH
all he said was "i'll love you forever no matter what you know"
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The Weight Issues
Haven't really weighed myself since me and the boy started talking again i dont feel like ive gained but i dont think ive lost

Best to maintain rather than gain though aye?

Weighed myself this morning 67.4kg
Not Good..
But I Will Get To 60kg By 20thSept :)


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Lilah Lee-i hate how boys can eat literally everything and not have to worry about gaining weight :( my friend eats ALL the time and hes skinny as ever im so jel lol i annoy him saying hes skinny but i love the way he is...muscley and defined bt skinny not like the hulk lol x

Erm..

Ok guys honestly speaking..

What do you think of these pictures?

Do you think boys look good skinny?
what type of boys do you go for?

would you want a boyfriend that had an ed?

random i know but ive just been thinking...

Ive missed you all :(
Sorry ive been a ghost
Been working like a slave and sleepin when im not

Thank you so much for your comments..
You lot are THE bestest
I appreciate your comments so much like honestly each one makes me smile :)

x

And The Pain Goes On..

How life has changed
How my life has changed
Its unbelievable

I want to run and start a new life
I want to stay and be strong

I love my family and friends
I hate myself

Apparantly you cant love anyone before you love yourself...
So what am i a hypocrite?

Because im fat and disguisting
I cant look at myself in the mirror
I dont want to leave the house

I hate myself!
So do i really..maybe..possibly..
Hate everyone ?

Fat Causes So Many Problems Half Are Only Health The Other Half Are Emotional Physical And Mental..

Someone Help Me..

These Streets Of Mine...

As i drive through my area all
I see is darkness and sadness.
In a matter of days London has been broken.
Apparently the end is near..
Apparently theres a revolutuon..

My areas have been locked down
Work got shut down
Sirens everywhere

Fear is such a small word right now
Im really scared

Bt im angry who are these people
Why are they allowed to ruin our areas
They say "Fuck The Police"
Then why not petrol bomb a police station
Why are they ruining shops and peoples houses?
because theyre mindless thugs!

and i just binged..

He's Laying Next To Me..

as i lay here with the love of my life next to me i should be happy
as i lay here with the love of my life next to me i should feel perfect
but
as i lay here with the love of my life next to me i dont feel happy or perfect

i want to get up and purge
i want to take laxatives and hurt
i want to weigh 65kg before i go sleep
but
i want to not care about my weight and be happy and perfect

the only thing i want to do is get up and eat to stop my belly rumbling
the only thing i want to do is get up and not care about eating late
but
the only thing i can to do is lay here, hungry pretending to be happy and perfect...because one day i will be


x  :(   x

Help Please

:'(

oh guys im a failure..
I have good ane bad news..

*Good News*
we had the talk
He got all emotional and said he loved me...

*Bad News*
ive gained 5lbs!!
im happy im inlove and that means goin out for dinner/lunch/cinema..
Aghh i dont kno what to do i hate myself i hate my face my body and my life!

i love him i love him so much bt he js eata and eats and im obv the weakest person in the world....restricting then fasting fuck it

Im done with this fat
Im done with waiting for mia to come back
Im done with it all

Skinny me here i come!!

x :) x

For God Sake....

Ahh My Life Is Annoying Me...

So Im Like £900 overdraft
And my job try pay me £860 after i slave like f@#% for them?!

aghh im gna hav to live on my overdraft till my student loan comea through but how annoying seriously?!
My mother keeps calling me a tramp because im in debt..my own mother??

after i had to go overdraft because i paid HER bills...yet she no denies it and says that what kind of person am i asking her for money back?!

seen..
After all i was tryna do wss explain to her the reason why im overdraft..seriously why do parents never listen

Im so annoyed..i havnt eaten all day jus sippin on a coke now because i swear im gonna fall asleep at work

I dont even care if i have no money=no food=skinny me!

so its kool beans i guess..

Neway hes started stayin round now which means my attempts at trying to purge again are not gonna happen..

Mia's abandoned me :(
bt i dont care its better atleast now i dont binge now i can jus never eat and be happy :)

love you all

Remember-if foods the problem, eating is not the solution x

x :/ x

/#&%**#&&*

AGH...
im the fattest stupidest weakest person..
back to 67kg!!
aghh my clothes are tight my skin is horrid
I hate myself and this stupid fat

Why can i not stop eating
Why can i not say no
Why can i not be skinny

The boy makes her go away
Mia leaves me shes gone
I no longer feel hunger
I no longer feel belly aches
I no longer purge

And i hate it
Im full up all the time
That disguisting feeling of eating too much is all i feel

Mia please come back
Help me again
Help me be skinny
Help me take control again

Thinspo Be My Love Again...

Could i ever Be Happy, InLove And Skinny?

But Really Being Skinny Is Happiness And I Will Find Love So Sacrifices Have To Be Made I Will Be Skinny I Will Loose Min 4lbs A Week I Dnt Care Hw But I Will

* :/ *

Finally

So im sorry that ive been a ghost
X

But i finally moved in yaaay
Well i still hv to unpack bt yaay lool

The girls seem really nice and theyre on a 'diet' which they broke in like 5hours bt still theyre lack of self control helps me carry on my war with this b*&%# of a weight

I havnt weighed myself im too scared
I had chinese today with him (he came round to help me move in) i ate as little as possible and filled up on diet coke..
Aghhhh i wna purge so badly bt i cant :'(

ive started to feel hunger again...that satisfing feeling of been empty and knowing that my bodys eating itself..

Ive been really lightheaded lately too bt i think its cs i dnt eat and just smoke which this may sound weird but i love feeling like this...i like knowing that my bodys struggling because then it will use more fat as energy.

He noticed my weightloss he called me beautiful he hugs me and holds me...he actually can wrap his arms around me now...lool

I will weigh myself tmro and let you know hw badly :( ive been

Remember-only a strong willed person can be beautiful x

x :) x

Atleast Im Loosing Weight Right?

So...
I havent posted in a few days
Terrible person yes
Good excuse? kinda..

Lol ok so we've met up 2times again..already? Yes..

We Went cinema nd watched hangover 2..well tried to he kept stroking my arms..my legs...kissing me and omg the tension ws unbearable...
No we didnt hav sex in the cinema !

But we wanted eachova and even the next day we planned and booked hotel again for the 22nd which is years away...

So we met up in my lunch hour..went back to mine and o.m.g i didnt want to go back lol

There is some romance to this by the way lol
He rode his bike to my house nd wen i had to go back i drove back...he text me sayin im mean bcs i didnt giv him a kiss goodbye :(

and i did feel terrible bt he rode all the way to my workplace jus for a kiss...and it wa raining so much

Aww lool

Anway hes started calling me bbe and txtin me alot...hes really getting to me

I know i never stopped loving him bt he doesnt know that..
I cant tell him yet im still been the mean bitch to him-which may i add he seems to like more..

Well atleast im loosing weight all this "exercise" ive lost another lb :)

i love hw he makes me feel sexy and wanted
But
I miss mia..shes gne..
I actually looked in the mirror and tricked myself into thinking i look good...
I still need to loose..im not there yet
I jus hope i can start purging again

Remember-Love Is Blind It Tricks Us By Makin Us Happy To Jus Break Us x

x :) x

Lol My Life Is Jokess

Hello Hello :)
How is everyone :)

Joke I Know What Your Waitin To Read...why have i gone weird...omg im actually scared to tell you lol

(Slapped Myself)

Ok so i text him saying i had to cancel because i cant stay out...he replied saying thats its ok bt if i cnt stay out do i wna go cinema with him..nd blah blah blah....
I said yes
Took me 2 hours to get ready
I tried on every item of clothing i own
Told my mother a lie and off i went
Ofcourse i was fashionably late..

I got to the cinema and there he was..
Much skinnier but buffer than before..hes obv been working out
and hes tanned...burnt even

I dnt kno hw to say hello so i joke saying why is HE late
He tries to hug me nd i walk on..what a bitch..

It wasnt too bad as we ws in the dark couldnt talk couldnt see each other...he did whisper nd kept tickling me (like wtf am i 5?!) he ws funny tho

He sent me a txt half way thru the film saying we shud stil go hotel...
I say yes bt that i needed to go hme nd get stuff

Film finished
I went home
Met him at hotel

Wasnt as awkward as i thought it would be..
I asked for a drink and looked out the window as i didnt kno wat else to do
He came behind me, hugged me, turnt me around nd kissed me

At that momemt i realised how much i missed his lips his way of kissing me the way he slightly bites my lip
My heart was goin mad...the butterflies in my belly were crazy.

I missed him
I dont hate him
He missed me
He wanted me

And i let him have me...

Oh how i wanted to tell him i still love him..
He kept telling me im beautiful..
He kept kissing me and holding me and looking at me...
Touching my body and telling me he wants me again

And i let him again..and again

We woke up in each others arms
He said im the most beautiful girl in the world..
I didnt want that moment to end

Bt i had to leave i had work at 11..
he begged me not to go he held me and kissed me again

I dropped him home and went work he txt me saying he wants to see me again..i said maybe we spoke all day abwt anything nd everything

And hes just text me sayin 'Im Joking I Luv Yu reli xxxx'

I text bk "luv yu xxx"

And i think i really really do

x :/ x

Hahsudbdvgsjdk

Like The Title Says..Im Feeling So Messed Up Right Now

Like Today Is The Day
The Day
The ACTUAL Day

Omg So I Was Gna Cancel
Then He Text Me..
9am-"hey so i just got back from holiday..we stil meetin tonight? x"

Agh
1) Why Txt Me That Early?! Yes I Was Up Anyway But He Didnt Kno Lol
2)He Text Me As Soon As He Got Off The Plane..Eager Beaver
3)Why Did He Remember?!

I Talk S#*@ I Know Bt Im Jus Adj'd!!

OmgOmgOmg
Well I Lost Anothee lb which ia good/ish..nt enought bt im kool with that :)

countdown:0days!! Todays The Day!!
weight loss:4lbs
Emotion:whahsjsbswh...literally!

x :) x

Well Hello Mother Nature..

Seriously F*** My Actual Life

So Im Guessin You Know Whats Happened From The Title Of This Post?!

Seriously why me?
why now?
why does life hate me?!

Agh So What the F am i suppose to do now?

Hes still on holidays so my plan now is to play it kool nd js act like i forgt..bt thats a hotel room gone to waste..
So its noy exactly a good plan..

Whatevs anyway..
I started using my wii fit again amd O.M.G i forgt hw much of an actual work out it is!

My body is killing..bt i have lost another lb :)

will tell you tmra for definite abwt whats happening

Countdown: 2 days
Weight loss: 3lbs
Emotion:Pee'd Off!

Remember-Your Not There Yet Bt Your Much Closer Today x

x :) x

I Dont Care Really...

Heyy
So Ive Decided To Go On Friday..
Im Convincing Myself That I Dont Care What Happens That I Hate Him And Im Not Even Going To Try And Look Good "For Him"

However I Find Myself With An Appointment On :
Monday For My Hair
Tuesday Getting My Nails Done
Wednesday Spray Tan
Thursday Facial, Eyebrows And Eyelashes
And
Friday-The Day

So Yeah Thats How Much I Obv "Do Not Care"
My Subconcious Is A Bitch

Anywho Atleast Ive Lost 2lbs Already :)
Agh Im So Scared And Him Being On Holiday In Zante With His "Boy Friends" Isnt Helping..
Im Not Normally Paro Bt I Find Myself Thinkin..'Is He Doing A Girl Out There'
(God Knows Theres Enough Skin On Show You'd Think Its A Butchers)..Then Hes Gta Come Back To Me..Fat Frumpy Me...I Didnt Even Care About Him 2 Seconds Ago..Hes Messed My Emotions Up...

Stupid Boy..
Stupid Me..
Stupid Fat..

Thank You For The Support :) You ado Make Me Smile And Thank God Noones Called Me Stupid Yet Lol

I'll Keep You Posted

Countdown-5Days
Loss-2lbs
Emotion-MindF****d

Remember-Been Called Anorexic Is Much Better Than Been Called A Fat Minger x

x :) x

Ohno...

Hey All :)

So I Got Good And Bad News..

Bt First Thank You To *Sarah* For Commenting :) Im So Glad It Was A Just A Nightmare Lol And Yeah I Move In On 10th July Soo Wish Me Luck :) x

Now Bad News First-
I Went Out With Friends Last Weekend..Ended Up Gettin So Drunk I Cant Even Remember Half Of The Night...Bt I Woke To A Text On My Phone Saying "Its Not A Good Time To Talk About Us As Your Drunk..Bt Ive Booked Hotel For The 1st July I Really Hope You Turn Up So We Can Talk..I Miss You X" And Yes That Os From Him..I Mustve Drunk Txt/Called N...FML

Good News-
Im Loosing Again :) I Finally After 6Months Got My Wii Fixed Too So Went On My Wii Fit And In 376Days(To Be Specific) Ive Lost 1Stone nd 3Lbs...Most Of It Prob After The Break Up But Still Im Down To 65Kg Again And Hopefully I Can Lose 1kg A Day..

So New Goal New Target New Motivation*
1Week-7kg-How? Water Diet..

I Cant Let Him See Me Fat
AGHH
How Do I Get Myself Into This?
I Find It So Hard To Restrict/Purge Around Him...Seriously Mia Abandons Me :(

Wish Me Luck Guys...Or Tell Me Im Stupid Either Way..Help I Dont Know How To Feel/What To Do x

*Remember-A Fat Person Is Big But Noone Notices Them*

x :) x

Ahhh! Im Moving Out!

O.M.F.G
Im Moving Out?!

Like No Seriously Ive Got A Room And Everything...
If You Knew How Scared I Am...
I Cant Be At Home Because They Feed Me Like Ima 5Year Old..
But Im Scared With Living With "Party Animal" Students..The Girls Seem Nice Tho...Hmm
Have Any Of You Moved Out And If You Have
-How Old Was You?
-What Was It Like?
-Am I Doing The Right Thing?

I Had A Dream Last Night
A Dream About My Life, I Married A Man Called Herbert (LOL) And I Was Pretty,I Was Happy, I Even Had A Little Family..
But
He Cheated On Me He Cheated On Me With Ana(yes that was her actual name)
He Left Me, I BrokeDown, I Wanted To Hurt Myself...I Woke Up In My Dream An I Was In The Hospital, All My Family Had Come To See Me, My Mum Spoke To Me And Said That She Doesnt See Why After Everything I Done I Still Want Attention..She Said Shes Had Enough And Didnt Want Anything To Do With Me..Obv I Was Baffled..I Asked Her What Happend I begged Her Not To Leave Me Alone
And she Turnt And Said
"I Dont Want To Leave You, You Left Us, Ana Took You And I Know Your Never Coming Back"
So It Was Me That Cheated It Was Me That Lost My Family To Ana...

It Makes No Sense As Im Bulimic-MIA Controls Me-I Mean I Control Mia

Actually I Dont Even Know Anymore...
Shes Gone And I Want Her Back..Whenever N Talks To Me She Disappears..
Should I Choose Love Or Mia?
Do I Even Have A Choice?
Do I Want To Not Choose Mia?

x :/ x

Dont Stereotype Me !

Heyyy Everyonee :)

First Up *Heyy* To The New Follower Thanks For Reading My Blog :) I'll Try Not To Bore You Too Much Lol

So what ive noticed recently is
1.my posts are too long
And
2.since i started loosing weight everything everyone and everywhere is talking about anorexia..its on tv, radio and internet haters are on the rise lol

What annoys me about this is people stereotype people with ED'S with 3 words THEY-DONT-EAT ! And apparantly we jus sit in our rooms like lazy hobos...

Like seriously could yu imagine hw easy it wud be if all we done was sit in our rooms..no worries/stress..no food and we was happy?!

If thats what ED's about then i dnt hv one! because:
-i do eat (binge even!)
-i exercise alot!! (4 mornings at bootcamp and every evening)
-im not happy that i have belly aches and i feel faint 24/7

I jus wish people would take that extra second to think..."You Know What Maybe Its Not Her Fault She Cant Eat..MAYBE ITS ANA/MIA TELLING HER SHES FAT 24/7..AND MAYBE SHE WANTS TO GET RID OF THIS 'DISEASE' BUT WOULD RATHER DIE TRYING THAN LIVE FAT!)

Jus Remember-Fat is Lazy..ED'S Are Self Control!

Fuck The Wanarexics !!

x :) x

Ermmm Where Are My Posts?!?!

RIGHT..... So im sure ive been posting likr everyday and ive just checked on my pc and theres nothing there...

Hmm..

Thats strange.. I guess im gna have to js do it again FUN TIMES o_O

ermm so i got a few things to talk about...lil catch up :P

Numero 1 im still loosing no weight...but im not gaining either so yaay bt naay at the same time.. :(

Numero 2 I joined a boot camp...6am start-3hours long-3times a week...now all i have to do is wake up :/

Numero 3 Im havin a super hard time finding a place to live and roomates that are normal...wish me luck plzz :)

Numero 4 Im a terrible human being for not commenting on your blogs for a few days..but i will do it right now because i love you like that :D !!

Numero 5 The Ex text me again...he said he saw me! and he said i look sexy Hmmm I was in the car and prob singing badly or dancing badly either way CRINGE XD Aghh i have to much pride to ever be with him but why is he sumhow getting to me... Hmmm i hate emotions

Anywhu...Enuff Nonesense Hope Your All (Yes all 3 of you :P ) Well And Beautiful x

Remember-Thin Is In Whoever Says Otherwise Is Usually Fat

x :) x

:( Oh Not A Good Day

FAILURE
Ok So...I Weighed Myself this Morning..147.6 Aghh!

What Annoys Me Is That Ive Been Between 146-148 For About A Week...My Metabolism Is STILL Spazing Out :(

Im Starting To Buy Size 10 Clothes Now Tho..Yaay Me :) But Seriously...Im Still Not Happy With All This Constant Weight!


MOVING ON
So Like I Told You Last Time I'm Moving Out...Spreading My Wings And Leaving The Nest Lol
I've Got A Viewing Today And Saturday So Hopefully I Can Move In By Next Month Because As Much As I Love Been At Home (!) Im Excited About Moving Out And Just Want To Move Out Now..!

Anyway Lovelies I Hope Your All Okay :)
Thank You For Your Support As Always

Remember-An Imperfect Body Reflect An Imperfect Person

x :) x

I Need You More Than You Know

So first of all you guys are awesome :) i really appreciate your support and comments it really means alot to me :) x

Now The Bad Stuff..
1. My No.1 enemy and i met today and he told me im weighing 146.6 i guess he was in a good mood :)

2. I have this stupid emotion called love that wont leave me alone and as i recieved a text from my ex today i got all silly..butterflies in my belly smiling to myself the whole lot..
Let me introduce you to 'The Ex' lets call him N
So N and i dated from the 16th May 2008 to 22nd November 2010 (isit weird that i know specifically?) so yes it has been about 7months since we broke up...if i was reading this id be like 'seriously get over it' so i know hw pathetic im being...there is a but tho...N is the one that got me into recovery during the 2and something years i put on 3stone..he made me feel happy he made me feel beautiful he made me love myself...and i honestly did love him with all my heart.

We're doing the same course in uni which means we had plans we had a future..we were practically settled and yes i am 19 but im stupid in love i believe in the fairytale ending and honest to god if the right guy came along and asked me to marry him right now then id be like HELL YEAH!! :)

Anyway...Back to reality...like i said we're doing the same course in uni

Are you readyfor the punchline?
The guy i love and absolutely cant get over is going to be in my class for the next 4years...now i dnt say this too often but literally FML!

And if your thinkin why not be together why did you break up?
Because he found someone better he found someone prettier,smarter and skinnier.

So the one person that made me better and happy and gave me a near to perfect life...is the same person that took it all away.

Sad Times...

But On A Lighter Happier Note
'Im Movin Out!!' :D
Yaay To Me Growing Up

Remember-You Only Fail If You Stop Trying x

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So i thought itd be a good idea to tell you a bit about moi :) 

im 19 i live in london and ive been diagnosed with bulimia...but my parents dont know because they ver rarely show intrest in anythin that has nothing to do with work..poor me :( lol jke i love it really i get to do whatever i want and no one notices..except mia.

Let me introduce you to a key character in my life...the beautiful love to hate Mia.

Shes my best friend..my enemy..the one i need but dont want...you could say we have a love hate relationship.

For one reason or another i cant seem to be able to purge recently..like wtf?! bt its mia punishing me because i put on 3lbs like a fat fat fatty lol so im using laxatives and doing a salt cleanse which i normally do 1 or the other but have now taken to doing both..fun times.

Let me jus point out-I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE THIS IS NOT A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN GO A DAY WITHOUT EATING DOEA NOT MAKE YOU ANA...JUST REMEMBER YOU CANT BECOME OR CHOOSE TO BE ANA...SHE CHOOSES YOU.

So My Current Weight Is 67.8kg (Ergh)

My Lowest Weight Is 50kg

1st Goal-59kg-Prize Spray Tan

2nd Goal-52kg-Prize Bikini

3rd Goal-45kg-Prize New Boyfriend ;) 

Ultimate Goal-40kg-Prize Perfection <3

Remember-Nothing Tastes As Good As Thin Feels x
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Well Hello Hello...

First Post :)
Ahh The Excitement!
Lol So Im Basically On A Mission To Loose Weight...But It Keeps Finding Me :(
From The Name You Can See That Yes Mia Is My Best Friend..My Enemy..The Voice In My Head That I Dont Want To Get Rid Of..Shes Everything And Nothing I Want ♥

Im Going To Document Everyday- For No Reason At All But I Hope You (Whoever Reads) Will Enjoy And Relate To Me

Don Not Post Negativity Because Im Telling You Now-I Do Not Care About Anything BUT Being Skinny And I Do Not Care How I Reach My Goal Weight My Body My Choice :)

Just Remember-Quod Me Nutrit Me Destruit ♥

Talk Soon

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